skinny_love5

I'm posting my plan so I can stick to it!!!

Wednesday-Sunday: liquid fast!!
Sunday- April 29th: no more than 500cal

My gw2 date is May 1st, I want to be 130!! I think I'm probably about 140 right now, so 10lbs... I need to get as close to my gw as possible- no more self sabotage!

So yesterday I binged! and I mean, no control, constant eating binge!! I was freaking out afterward but the more I sat there freaking out in my head I realized how I was killing myself and family by not eating and running my body into the ground. So I'm turning this binge into a recovery....at least thats what I'm calling it. Yesterday I had about 1500-1700 calories! I've decided to up my normally daily intake to about 900-1000 to up my metabolism and give me energy to be happy and workout. Lately I've had no energy, I can barley get from my car to classes without wanting to pass out, thus barley being able to workout. I love working out, it makes me happy, so not being able to do that has gotten me into a severe depression. I am really feeling proud of myself, but looking at my meal plans for the next 2 weeks is crazy, so much food...It's tough to come up with a plan for 1000 calories. I had to weigh myself this morning, even though I knew I would gain from the binge, I just had to know where I'm starting from and it turns out I didn't gain a single ounce, I stayed exactly the same. So I think I might gain a bit starting this new plan, but eventually my weight will level off and should slowly start to lower. I'm really scared, and I know this isnt a full recovery, but I'm really trying...